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Died on
April 29, 2007

Compton
200 E. Compton Blvd.
Age: 53
Gender: Female
Cause: Stabbing
Race/Ethnicity: Black
Agency: LASD

Ella Suggs, 53

April 29, 2007, 3:11 p.m.

Ella Suggs, 53, a black woman, was stabbed at a bus stop at 200 East Compton Blvd. and died at 3:07 p.m. Sunday, April 29. Police said a man walked up to her and stabbed her without provocation as she waited for the bus.

She was taken to a nearby hospital, where she died. A 31-year-old black man was arrested later the same day at the scene. His motive is still under investigation, police said.

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115 reader comments

Time seems to be flying by! I can’t recall the last time I visited this site, but know that it is a part of my memory index. I have so many conflicting thoughts about the upcoming Preparole Conference of murderer Charles Leon Elmore, like it’s only year 13... He was initially given 26 years to life but because he changed his mind about having the Sanity Phaae of the trial then one of the factors that didn’t happen in the criminal phase became a technicality type of thing. Now what? Do we opt for a new trial or go with Second Degree murder and 15 years to life! At the time, 15 years to life was the best alternative for my emotional state. Who knew how fast time would seemingly pass. I was told he couldn’t get out earlier than 15 years, but 13 years later we embark upon that bitter/sweet day! This junction has nothing to do with forgiveness, but rather is it safe and fair for a person with a life attachment to just walk free. For me, he should be held 100 percent accountable and never see life outside of the prison walls. My Momma, can’t resurrect from the grave but the criminal can be considered for release next year. No matter how you slice life, there will typically be something that’s perceivably unfair. And, somehow me and my family seems to end up on the unfair side, more often that our counterparts! What I can say about time is that, it has blessed me to release some of the pain, but that absolute hasn’t been seen on my horizon at all. Despite, my perspective of what is actually happening... real time for me is chaotic and riddled with matters of life. My yearning for my mom is triggered and the intensity quite high! I’m at a point of constant nightmares of her not being dead, but missing and I can’t find her. How freaking awesome it would be to see her, hug and laugh with her. And. Covid 19 exacerbates the reality of the griever by channeling everything into the plight of uncertainty which is scary by itself. My prayer if for Charles Elmore to start serving the indeterminate part of the sentence and not be consider for parole for another 10 years

— LaQuita Suggs June 25, 2020 at 1:12 a.m.

April 29th was the 9th anniversary of the death of my mother. I had mixed emotions and thoughts as I approached that day. One thing that I thought would be helpful was to continue to do things as normal as possible without placing much emphasis on the significance of the day. I thought, I am okay with crying, but I don't feel like crying; okay with focusing on the memories, but didn't want to think...so I posted a few pictures and what stood out to me is the thought "I come to the garden alone." I fixated on what that actually meant for me for a while. Before I could really get caught up in too much of anything I noticed that my aunt (my mom's youngest sister) posted something different and I immediately became torn as I started to believe that by me doing something different... it hindered the grief process of everyone else who had a relationship with my mom. So I spoke with my aunt and said, your grief process has to be your own. You don't have to internalize what you think or feel because of me. She said, " I know, I just didn't want to say anything." I heard her voice trembling so hard that the sound of her pain caused me to started crying and I said, even if you never said another word about my mom (your sister) or never posted on social media about her...It wouldn't reduce my thoughts or feelings, because I am thinking about her majority of the time. I carry her with me so the memory of her is in the forefront of my mind and embedded in my soul. Talk about an imprint!

— LaQuita Suggs April 30, 2016 at 7:07 p.m.

Not a day goes by that I do not have some sort of thought about what my experience has been.The difference from then to now is that the majority of the thoughts are positive. I have experienced a few tragic losses of people whom I have an attachment with and I noticed some fear...of what will happen next...occurring. However, I have developed a daily self monitoring tool that is specific to me and it keeps me aware of the things I should do differently to reduce being triggered. I am writing daily and it is really channeling my focus... to what is good about the day. Today I was writing about the emotions attached to trauma and I noticed something that was profound for me. Although, I felt like I was on an emotional roller coaster because of the frequency that my emotions changed...there was one emotion that remain constant and never changed...that emotion also fueled the intensity of my other emotions.
Strange, I wasn't able to figure out how I started to identify with my trauma...how I got to a point where I was so numb that I couldn't see what emotion was still the same. Since I failed to realized that the one emotion never changed or never went away...I was significantly delayed in my journey. What do you think the constant emotion was? Yearning (intense and chronic longing for something that I would never have again--physical connection). My reality is... I was able to adjust to the yearning by being okay with it's existence as long as I remained in control. The problem that I had is not being able to pinpoint what caused me to feel different and more tolerant of a life without my mom. When change occurs, it is important to identify what the change was and what made it different.
Keep living and breathing you will start to create a way of dealing with life that is acceptable enough for you, so that you can improve and progress. There is hope for us all!!!

— LaQuita- Ella's Daughter Nov. 10, 2014 at 10:50 p.m.

So I can't sleep and I'm up just thinking WHAT IF. I can remember the last day I saw you. It was April 28th that Saturday, and I was on the couch talking on the phone. You had just got done ironing your clothes and was putting the iron board up. You caught my attention and said hey yaayee (what you called me when I was younger) and I said hey granny. I feel asleep on the couch and you normally you'll wake me up and tell me to get in the bed but that night I got up on my own. I was debating if I should stay sleep here or get in my bed. I never would have known that would be the last time I would see you. It's hard dealing with what happen to you because I feel that I should have been there with you. I use to go everywhere with you, but as I got older it just stopped. I always wondered at that time did you wish I was there with you? I know you did because I wish I was there to protect you, because for a fact none of this wouldn't have happened. I don't think it was your time, it happened because you were a target for a coward. Even if it was your time that's not how it should have been. My grandmother killed for what? Why her? I've never seen her hurt a fly! So many questions I have go unanswered. I miss you so much. To the point that I still sleep with the TV on because you always would get up and turn it off. Just wishing you still could, but when I wake up and it's still on it hits me that your gone. I remember I got in trouble and mom took my phone away from me and you let me use yours at night lol. Then before you went to work you would come get it from me. So many memories we shared that I just replay them and sit back and laugh to kind of ease the pain. I can say that I've gotten better because I couldn't talk about what happen to you without breaking down in tears. I just cry to myself now because if I don't that day replay. Something I can't get out of my head even if I tried. I wish you could meet Aiden and Ashton. You guys would have so much. Cam doing good in basketball, and mom working hard as usual lol Haven't seen you in my dreams lately just hope you would stop by to let me know that you're ok. I love you so much granny.

— Atwan (grandson) June 25, 2014 at 6:40 a.m.

@JMAC- dealing with death has got to be the hardest part of living. I am so sorry about your mother. Were you drawn to the homicide blog because of thoughts of your mom? I know that some people have awful experiences with their parents- my experience with my dad was almost at that place; but when you have a good mom and she is taken that way, it's so devastating. Although today I feel different, I will never be the same and the hope that I have is that I see her (and actually know who she is) when I get to heaven. The funny part is that years ago I wanted to die and thought that I would because my heart was so grieved. Today I am grateful to no be alive. I lived with a strong sense of pain and desperation in my chest. Despite the fact that it was hard, I wouldn't let go of it because to me it kept me closely connected. And I times I get mad at life, but then I get over it for a moment. Take care of yourself and don't' hesitate to seek help if you need it. Be okay with taking one day at a time. Everyday I try to embrace that day in a way that is pleasing to God, my family and me- the space of today keeps me focused.

— LaQuita-Daughter June 20, 2014 at 7:12 p.m.

I'm sitting here reading through all the blogs and it's interesting that I can recall what state I was in when I wrote some of these blogs. After the article posted about my mom, my heart started beating really fast- as if I was nervous or reliving some aspect of the traumatic experience. Although, I was afraid I am very grateful at the same time. More importantly, I am sooooo happy that I did not die from a broken heart- which could have easily happened. Never in a million years would I think that I would be at a place of being okay- not the same as acceptance, but a sort of reduced emotional state. I just literally closed my eyes and I felt like kicking my legs as a semblance of victory within my storm. What does that mean- I don't know really, but something like an extreme kick start into living- without covering the suffering. Yeah I feel unmasked and proud of my scars. The Williams Brothers sings it best "bruises, I've taken my lumps and bruises but I'm still here."

— LaQuita-Daughter June 19, 2014 at 12:04 a.m.

A day come and gone:
So, yesterday was the 7th anniversary of the death of my mom. And, the day was somewhat different in the way I conducted myself, but the emotional connection that links us was very strong in my heart. I reread a few post by other people and I started reflecting on the traumatic aspect of death and how it leaves you intact, but broken apart at the same time. So, if you imagine my body just holding the parts of my heart and soul in pieces and not it's respective place, you would imagine how out of sort this loss is. One comment from a reader said, "you don't ever recover you just learn how to deal with" and I thought this is something that I have said before, but now I am wondering if just dealing with something really dealing with it. Yes, you learn how to identify your triggers to either suppress your emotional reaction or you learn when it is most appropriate to be alone or to take some time away; but at what point do you deal with it?
Today my vow to myself is to deal with the pain, the hurt, the loss and whatever thoughts/meaning that I have attached to it; in a way that is effective, useful and restoring to me and others.

— LaQuita-Daughter April 30, 2014 at 8:12 a.m.

To start, I just noticed the comment by Chellymay, thank you for those kind words and may God continue to bless you. I am certain that your loss is significant even this day. I imagine that losing a child is most difficult and you explain having loss major parts of life that are connected with certain people. They say when you lose a parent, you lose your past; when you lose your spouse, you lose your present and when you lose your child, you lose your future. Wow, so then you end up left with what? If you haven't found, (then I am sure you will) God will restore your hope because your past still exist with you in form of thoughts/memories and as long as you keep breathing there is a hope. Jer 29:11" For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord. Thoughts of peace and not of evil to give you an expected end." That end equals a hope and a future.
Be in peace, I attend New Antioch Church in Los Angeles if you are eve in the area, come by.

— LaQuita-Daughter April 30, 2014 at 7:46 a.m.

" NEVER A CLOSURE "
I'm reminded of Miss Ella Suggs, she was a very sweet person, always with a smile on her face, I truely can relate to how you feel and your hurt , I to lost a Love one, my only child, my son November 20, 1994 on a sunday morning, he to was a victim of crime, he was shot 4 time, even though it's been 19 1/2 years, it seems like it was just

yesterday, i still

l cries day and night
never ending closure, I also lost my mom and dad three months apart from
each other in the same year of 2001,

they wasn't a victim of crime, it was do
to a medical reason CANCER. But

thinks be to God, it was He that had ketped me and not me myself, my prayers are with you LaQuita, day and night, contiune to walk before the Lord, He will give you added strenght.
Your sister in Christ........
Chellynay

— Chellymay Feb. 17, 2014 at 9:42 a.m.

This year April will be seven years that my mother was murdered. In seven years, a lot of things both good and bad have occurred that I wish I could share with my mom. Death is one of the most difficult things to deal with. I have been looking at myself wondering if there will ever be a week or month that passes that I don't think about my loss. And, I don't think there will ever be, but I have learned to be okay with that. I find it ironic that I continued to be triggered by sirens and I wasn't present when the awful tragedy occurred and can't recall hearing any activity from afar. I do remember the news paper having a crime scene with a siren light which may contribute to my reaction to sirens. Either way, just experiencing death will leave you with some emotional sensation that will serve to remind you of what happened.
So, one of the things that I wanted to share is telling your story is a really powerful tool in the recovery process. Not, just from death, but any situation that you have been awful. Additionally, spiritual support towards me have been tremendous. Several Sundays ago I was in Church and the Sunday School teacher asked if I could share what happened to me. I paused at first, because I am sort of new to this Church, but I put on my intellectual hat to avoid balling crying ( I was still crying hard, but it wasn't balling) and I stated that my mother was murdered in 2007 and one of the issues that I struggle with is how to forgive the person who murdered her. I now and understand that forgiveness is about me, so I don't need anything from him to complete this part, but I haven't quite gotten to that point. I do pray that God helps me with this because ultimately you will have to move on from your experience. I will tell you that my belief in God has been my greatest help along the way. I am thankful for this site and the consideration for survivors.

— LaQuita-Daughter Jan. 2, 2014 at 6:58 a.m.

Well all the posts are actually still there, but you have to go through a little process to bring them up...that's funny how every single thing in life has a process. On the 17th will be my mom's birthday and I find myself more grieved leading up to the event. I actually had one of the greatest DA's involved in the case and believe it or not she still calls me to see how I'm doing. I still feel very much confused (to say the least) but God has proven to be awesome to me...Thanks so much for your words of encouragment...I have started working with Victims of Crime in my office and I like never before understand the hole that is imprinted through your heart that never really heals. I remember when breathing was hard and now it's gotten somewhat better...

— LaQuita Suggs Sept. 1, 2009 at 10:31 p.m.

Ms. SuggsWhen you quoted a friend who said that grief is love refusing to part I thought it WAS profound. But you know, as Christians, that love has not parted, just transformed. Of course, since we are spiritual beings having a human experience the physical loss is agonizing - we need and are so used to the senses telling us love exists and is real...but our faith is in that which is unseen. May you FEEL God's love with skin with every good thing in your life, every breath you take, every hug from someone that loves you (like your precious sons!). May you be embraced by God's love...though unseen may you continue to FEEL your mother and all her (now HEAVENLY) love. Someone else said she lives through you....in so many special ways. You are the reflection of the very best of her.My 16 year old nephew was murdered in Summer 2007. The trial took a long time. It's a process (an arduous, rageful, tearful, growthful process). Have faith in the process (and yours) because though not perfect, justice WILL served. And the greatest justice of all is, in the end...Gods!Gabriela G. LeyvaI am here for you.

— Gabriela G. Leyva Jan. 27, 2009 at 8:50 p.m.

I have actually submitted blogs to this site that have not posted for whatever reason. Blu thank you so much for your expression of concern. I have been trying to write out my experience and hope to one day publish it. The trial still has not stared, it seems to be one pitfall after another. The guy is trying to plead not guilty by reason of insanity, what a joke. He gets to delay the process while my family still reaches for closure. Talk about terror within. I am so ready to have this over with. I hope that you were able to reconnect with your mother. Since I am a therapist, I have actually been providing services to victims of crime and this brings me much solace. Anyone interested in emailing me to express your thoughts to help me through my process can do so at lsuggslcsw@hotmail.com

— LaQuita Suggs Aug. 8, 2008 at 6:09 p.m.

Tippy,I thought I had gotten thur the greiving process for my friend Ella. Sunday nite was an eye opener. I have not. UNCF honored SMOKEY- Ella's favorite entertainer. When they played "I second that emotion" I lost it. My friend was not a dancer, but I can still hear her say "watch me cut a step "when that song would play.When they send the moster that took her life away, I hope it is in a place so far away from the one's he love and love him that it will seem as though he as passed on as well. He should not be give the chance to have visitors so that he can feel the hole he has left in the hearts of people that loved Ella, my oldest and dearest friend.My prayer is that our hearts will heal and the light of Ella's smile will shine thur with gladness. Just as she would want it.Love ,Gail

— G. Austin Jan. 30, 2008 at 10:29 a.m.

My the latest post by daledo made me run to the bathroom in efforts to cover my tears. I have deeply touched to know that people have been able to do what I couldn't do. It's important to tell a love one daily that you love and care for them. Believe it or not this week seem much more difficult for me, I can't really explain why, I've just missed silly little stuff like saying "you know you should nt' eat that whole bag of cookies" Cherish every moment that you have with people you love. The trial will begin on Feb 12 as the animal keeps making these stupid allegations to delay the trial, hopefully this was his last attempt. He knows that he is guility because he asked the Judged if he is convicted can he be re-tried. It is satisfying in a sense to see him mentally anguished, but this does not compare to the tremenduous impact this ordeal has had on my family. He removed a generation from our family.....a legacy!!!!

— LaQuita Suggs Jan. 15, 2008 at 3:30 p.m.

LaQuita and the Suggs Family,I have never met you or your family but my heart grieves for you and I pray that you will be lifted in your times of need. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and grief with the readers on this blog. I have been riveted by your posts and by the horrible senseless nature of this incident.In the scope of this tragedy, I realize what I am about to say is a very small thing, but I want you to know after reading your posts I have re-dedicated myself to being closer to my own mother who lives back east. Seeing how quickly somebody who was loved by so many can be taken away has been valuable for me. I guess I had been taking her for granted. I understand tomorrow isn't promised to anybody but we all think it'll be 'somebody else' or somebody else's family.I have called her immeduiately after reading many of your posts and told her how much I love her and how much she means to me, no matter what we have been through. I had put off having these conversations because i assumed there woud always be time later on. I was wrong.I am so very sad for you, but know that your love for her has blossomed in part through this blog and in my family has led to positive things. I am probably not alone.If possible, please keep us up to date on the trial and I hope you realize how many people are thinking of you. Be strong and may justice be served.

— daledo Jan. 4, 2008 at 10:14 a.m.

It seems that I may have a few more months to post my comments. The trial date is set back again, but will hopefully start in February. I was reading this stdy titled Yale study confirms validtiy of long held 5 stages of grieving and one thing that was said is that sadness is confused with yearning. That's so true because I so desperately desire to see, talk, laugh, argue and all those things with my mom again. I go to sleep hoping that I can see her face. I think that this expereinced has changed me forever, I desire to help people through their hurt and pain. No one knows what it's like to lose a mother in that manner unless it has happened to you. However, I am grateful for people who can empath with my struggle. My kids are real troopers because this is equally devastating to them, but they hold me together. I love them so much in general but for that they get kudos.

— LaQuita Suggs Jan. 3, 2008 at 2:18 p.m.

I don't know if the wonderful comments by people will disappear after the new year, but I want to take an opportunity to say that I am grateful for the support that was extended to me and my family during this time. I realize that I will always be impacted by this awful event and search diligently for reprieve. The trial is impending and it seems that the criminal is becoming unglued. His family is attempting to pay for an attorney because they were told that the case is very strong against him. I wonder if I would protect a family member even if I knew that they commited a crime such as this. Anyway, I heard a song and the words ring strongly in my heart "NEVER, WOULD HAVE MADE IT, WITHOUT YOU, I WOULD HAVE LOST IT ALL... I thank GOD so much for helping my through this process. Will it ever bbe over,? Yes, the trial but not the void.

— LaQuita Suggs Dec. 31, 2007 at 9:24 a.m.

LaQuita,I just found this blog seemingly by accident, but I know it was meant for me to find it. You know that I am so sorry for your loss. I am especially, extremely sorry that we have not been in contact for a few months and I have not been there to support you through this horrific situation. Please know that you are in my thoughts always and I love you like a sister. I've read all your posts here and will look for the others that have been mentioned. I know how close you were to your mom and I cannot began to imagine the impact of her loss on you life or the kids. We all grieve in our own time and way and no one can tell you how to do that. Neither can anyone tell you how you're suppose to feel or what you're suppose to think about the person who did this awful, senseless, brutual act. I will contine to think about you and know that I AM HERE.

— Miriam Bailey Dec. 19, 2007 at 11:58 a.m.

Wow, I guess my previous statement was a Freduian slip. I stated without the possiblity of death, but I actually met parole. However, I think that justice wuld be for him to die or spend his worhtless life in prision wondering when his last day will be. The trial will be starting in January and I look forward to putting this behind. I realize that I will be forever wounded and impacted by this senseless action. However not having to go to court and see that maggot is also going to be rewarding for me. My kids continue to struggle and yes, we all still cry at the Cemetry and then if we see someone who walks like her we look back to make sure it's not her. Although we know she is not here there is still this far fetched notion that perhaps that wasn't her that we buried. I elicit the prayers of concerned citizens during this trial and I look forward to talking about how this has impacted our family.

— LaQuita Suggs Dec. 13, 2007 at 11:40 a.m.

Well you would think that life would be easier by now. Actually it is so different. I currently think about the course of my life and man, I'm such a different person today. I miss my mother like never before. Yesterday i had a dream (probably because the trial is near) and I heard a voice within my dreams that said "focus on the peace that she has right now." I had this strong sense of peace and was overjoyed internally, but i still miss talking to her, laughing and yes, her getting on my nerves. you never think about missing someone getting on your nerves, this is just another account of how every moment and experience with loved ones should be treasured. I think in January these post my be deleted or lost, so I printed out every page from this site and Compton news. We continue to go to the cemetry every week and each week seems like months since we where out. Time has a way of mending things but not deleting them. ILOVE MY MOM FOREVER AND PRAY THAT THE MONSTER RESPONSIBLE CHARLES LEON ELMORE WILL GET LIFE WITHOUT THE POSSIBILITY OF DEATH!!!!!!!!!!!!1

— LaQuita Dec. 5, 2007 at 2:28 p.m.

Well here we are embarking upon 6 months at the end of this month. Isn't it funny how time does not skip a beat and although we don't really recognize it, but if it did we could never get to a place of healing. I am trying to learn things from this tradegy and one important thing is that we should love and forgive people who we hold dear, because afterwards when all those would of, could of and should of surfaces, it's too late to say that I forgive you and that I was just upset that you did whatever. Death can not hear you. Learning to put things behind you is hard, but holding bitterness is not really worth it. So, I am praying that I will be able to forgive what has happen and move on in the strenght and peace of God, because being angry all the time is too hard for me.

— LaQuita Oct. 8, 2007 at 8:50 p.m.

In a day it will be five months ago that my Mom was murdered by charles elmore. We are still struggling, but have a lot of wonderful memories of all the silly and just awesome times. My son is preparing to graduate and is taking senior pictures and it is just unfair that this stupid maggot would impose upon our lives in such a way. You know you expect that people will die but you never expect for the stories that you hear or read about to be related to you. Tragedy has just overwhelmed our family starting with my mother and prayerfully ending with Carl Young. I pray that we have no more tragedies for a long while. Pray that justice prevails in each of these cases and that the Lord mends our brokenhearts. Sometimes I still watch the bus at the time that she is due to get off, do I think she will get off, of course not, but it's just habitual. I will be preparing to go to court again to see that pathetic, filthy animal and wish that he would drop dead in court.

— LaQuita Sept. 28, 2007 at 12:22 a.m.

On the 17th of this month was my Mom's birthday and on the 6th was mines and one can only imagine how both of these days were unfulfilled. I did feel a sense of solace when I visited her gravesite but at the same time was placed back in awe that this really occurred. My life is beginning to take unbelieve turns that have all been positive, but it's difficult for me to label this as a good life because to not have my Mom is crazy in my head. Sometimes I sit and think about the recent course of my life and I get overwhelmed to think that she can not enjoy the good things with me, therefore I feel undeserving to have positive shifts and changes. More and more I am feeling relief internally and can truly say to others that a day will come when the burdens will lift, maybe not totally, but enough where you can grasp for breath. SO, in trying to accept this as a natural occurence, not the act in which it happened, I know that GOD will totally heal me.

— LaQuita Sept. 20, 2007 at 7:52 p.m.

I have recently received calls and messages through other people wondering if I am the LaQuita that worked for the County of Probation. The answer is yes, unfortunately I am living through a travesty and am becoming stronger as time permits me to heal. I take greater pride in my work as a therapist and am able to feel like I'm doing something when I am able to help someone get through or at least accept that grieving and death is a normal part of life. This month will be a greater struggle because my Mom's birthday will be on the 17th and for the first time, I am not able to surprise her with something great. On the same hand my birthday is also this month and I will not get a card marked Mom 07. The little things that I didn't really take time to observe I am appreciating so much. Court is a trial especailly since the low life is now allegedly ------- and I wish that he would do me and my family a favor and strangle himslef. I know that's cruel but he did not hesitate to take my Mom's life so the fact that he is struggling does not move me one bit. I often look at the website because I actually want to see "MURDERER CHARLES ELMORE HANGS HIMSELF OR IS KILLED WHILE IN JAIL" Some may say that girl needs to learn how to forgive, but you do not know the pain and taunting thoughts that are associated with detectives coming to your home to inform you that your Mom was attacked and killed. My thoughts are lessen as time goes by and my Mom is in a better place and I have accepted that I will never see her again naturally, but I see her in my dreams and they seem so real sometimes that I have to get up and actually check to see if she is there. I have great compassion for all who have lost someone in a tragic way and I pray that the rate of homicides would cease.

— LaQuita Suggs- Daughter Sept. 1, 2007 at 4:31 p.m.

Laquita,I was looking on this website assisting a co-worker whom had a probationer who was recently killed. After assisting my co-worker with her matter I continued to look at the faces and came across what I believe to be your loss. I only know one Laquita Suggs.... and I am hoping this loss does not apply to you. However, my inner voice tells me this is you.Laquita, I never met your mother personally, but I have spoken to her on the telephone when she called the job and wanted to speak with to you. More importantly, I knew her because I know you. I know your values, your up-bringing and your outlook on life. So in essence I knew your mother through you.Laquita, dont try to make sense of this because you can not. This is a case of a "Real Life Monster' they do exist. No, they don't have bolts coming out of their necks or red eyes with teeth that have jagged edges, but they do exist. This is an example of how they roam the earth.I want you to know from this day forward live your life to the fullest. Share and charish those beautiful moments with those you love, because at any moment you can lose the one you love through no fault of their own.You can be at an outdoor food market in Santa Monica picking tomatoes and someone can plow a vehicle right in your direction; or you can be walking to class and someone can have you in their sights 400 meters away with their para-military rifle as you walk to your college physics class in Virginia.Laquita, I want you to know... I am here for you whatever you want. As you know lost my mother at an early age.213.713.5954. Mark Ward

— mark ward Aug. 24, 2007 at 2:43 p.m.

Grief is so mind boggling as you can literately be at a point of acceptance and get thrown back into a stsae of disbelief. It is ridiculous to think about not seeing you again, I mean I miss you so much and it seems as if there is nothing that I can do about that. I can't believe that soemone like you would get murdered on the streets and you have never done anything to anyone. One of the hardest things that people have said in getting over this is that you lived a life contrary to this brutal fate, you were non violent and loving, how could this be possible. I feel like cursing and kicking over things, but that's not me and it certainly would not bring you back. You know I feel guilty about living and I don't know what to do.

— LaQuita-Daughter Aug. 20, 2007 at 11:20 p.m.

I wish there was a remedy to ease pain, but it seems that time is the only method that full proof. However, waiting around for the pain to subside is long. Mom you know that I intend to go to court as much as possible and we continue to see you every Sunday. Today, Mrs. Young told me to tell you that she loves you and it made me want to cry because that family continues to be so supportive. Cameron asked "why did granny have to die" and I did not know what to say because I'm still wondering the same thing. I keep searching for the good that suppose to be attached to every situation, but I can't see it. Maybe you can reveal it to me. Anyway I love you and miss you. Do you remember Fred's nephew Lil Carl well he was killed last Sunday, what is it about Sunday for our families. Cameron thought that it would be good for you to know that he is there with you.

— LaQuita Aug. 5, 2007 at 5:36 p.m.

I would like to continue to thank people who take the time to read these blog and to post wonderful remarks. Thanks Ms. Terrell whoever you are, may the Lord strengthen you and bless you even now. I went to court the other day and was enraged internally when that murderer grandmother had the nerves to tell me that he did not do it. You would think that she was there or something and her rationale who too stupid to repeat. I thought what type of man who has a grandmother would take the life of someone's else grandmother. My mom did not deserve to be murdered. She is and will always be a woman of character and might. Life has dealt me so many blows that internally I am waving a white flag. I know that God is going to bring me through everything that I am experiencing. I am thankful that He has blessed me with great family and friends who continue to show up for me, when I feel that I can't show up for myself.

— LaQuita Aug. 4, 2007 at 7:01 p.m.

DEAR LAQUITA,I AM A FORMER RESIDENT OF COMPTON CALIFORNIA, BORN AND RAISED. I JUST HAPPENED TO STUMBLE ACROSS THIS ARTICLE ABOUT YOUR PRECIOUS LOST, I KNOW IT'S VERY HARD FOR YOU MY LITTLE SISTER. YET I PRAY THE LORD GIVES YOU STRENGTH TO SEE THIS THROUGH. I SAY THIS BECAUSE I KNOW HE WILL, JUST KEEP YOUR HEAD UP. I KNOW FROM ALL YOUR COMMENTS ON THIS SITE YOU ARE A SOLDIER WITH A LOT OF FAITH IN THE LORD, YOU "'MUST" NEVER GIVE UP. I KNOW YOUR MOM IS SO PROUD OF YOU! ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT. SHE MAY BE ABSENT IN THE FLESH, BUT BELIEVE ME EVEN THOUGH SHE IS NOW WITH THE LORD IN A BETTER PLACE, HER SPIRIT WILL ALWAYS BE WITH YOU, I KNOW, I'M AN ADAMENT BELIEVER IN THE LORD, I TRUST HIM WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL. LIKE YOUR MOM I AM A MOTHER AND GRANDMOTHER, MY CHILDREN ARE LIKE YOURSELF, THEY LOVE MOM, AND THE GRANDS LOVE THEIR NANA. I AM VERY ILL RIGHT NOW, AND I HAVE BEEN FOR SOME TIME NOW. I ALSO WORKED FOR THE GOVERNMENT WHERE I WAS SERIOUSLY INJURED. MY MOST FEAR HAS ALWAYS BEEN THE FACT THAT I DID NOT WANT TO BE A BURDEN ON THEM, BUT I GUESS THE LORD HAD OTHER PLANS. SWEETHEART I KNOW THIS TRAGEDY IS VERY HEAVY ON YOU AND YOUR FAMILY RIGHT NOW BUT I KNOW MOM HAS TOLD YOU THIS TIME AND AGAIN, "IT WILL NOT LAST," IT WILL BE ALL OVER IN THE MORNING, AND IF IT IS IN YOUR HEART TO RIGHT A NOVEL ABOUT YOUR BELOVED MOTHER, YOU FOLLOW YOUR HEART. I LOVE YOU LITTLE SISTER IN CHRIST, AND MY FAMILY AND MY WILL ALWAYS HAVE YOU AND YOURS IN OUR PRAYERS. I DON'T KNOW YOU PERSONALLY NOR YOU ME, BUT IF YOU NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO,OR PRAY WITH , JUST CONTACT ME AT MY E-MAIL. STAY STRONG LITTLE SISTER, GOD HAS YOUR BACK, AND HE IS GOING TO SEE YOU AND YOUR FAMILY THROUGH THIS. KEEP THE FAITH.

— MARIA TERRELL Aug. 4, 2007 at 1:38 p.m.

So I received this blog from a lady name Christine who is obviously a little frantic. I love God and believe that he is a strong deliverer. He alone can assist me in my grief. Forgiveness is a concept that we all face and if you lose someone close to you I don't know how easy forgiveness would enter into your heart. I am not looking for this man to burn in hell but Ifeel that he will get his just reward in court and hopefully spend the rest of his days in prison. I know that God loves all souls, but the soul that sinneth shall die. So, your prayer Ms. Christine should be that he finds Christ and get his life in order before his day of death. I do understand what you are saying but with this being two months fresh I don't understand or accept your words. Thank you and please do not respond again and just pray if that what you do best.

— LaQuita Suggs July 1, 2007 at 7:54 p.m.

LaQuita, Cookie & Family,I sympathize with you and your family. I also pray God's grace, mercy and peace be given to you all in great measure. God loves you all dearly and cares and feels your pain. However, He also loves the person who murdered your mother, LaQuite, and your sister, Cookie. He hates the sin and actions of this person and will judge him, but I feel strongly impressed by God to ask you and your family to forgive this man and release him as God released and forgave us all through the horrible death we caused His Son, Jesus Christ, to suffer in order for our sins to be forgiven. It was no accident I came upon this site. I believe with all my heart that God wants you and your family to forgive this man and pray for him so that he can be released, not released from the consequences of his actions, but released spiritually. Forgive him, not just for his sake, but also for yours. God loves you and he wants to heal you, but bitterness holds you captive. I don't know you, but I deeply feel your pain, and my heart aches with the pain because of the lost of your mother and sister. I pray now that you be healed and delivered from your pain and hurt in the name of Jesus. Cherish the memories of your love one and hold them dear in your heart, but let go of the guilty one in your heart. He needs your prayers and mercy, for his fate awaits him. In Christ, one has a future and a hope, without Christ one has eternal damnation. Unforgiveness holds us in bondage and Christ can not forgive us if we don't forgive those who wronged us. I've struggled with this myself and had to forgive much. Again, forgive this man and let him go. To those in your family who know Christ as their Lord and Savior, be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might, things will only get brighter and better for you, but to those who don't , darkness blinds them because of sin. I invite those of you who don't know Jesus as your Saviour to ask Him now to forgive you for your sins, come into your heart and save you. Ask Him to help you to forgive the person who've caused you so much pain. God bless and prosper you all spiritually, physically and financially.Love you in Christ,Christine

— Christine June 29, 2007 at 11:08 p.m.

I still take time to read the comments that are posted hear and on topix.com. I feel a sense of solace to read what is written to me. Grief and loss is difficult, but I praying for a day when my heart is not so heavy. I read this website posting a little while ago and it stated that I have turned the homicide blog into a personal grief journey and I thought, what ever it takes for me to get through is what it takes. I miss my mother so much and I read about all the deaths and I can not understand why some people have to die so tragically. Yes death is a normal part of living but the cruelty of murder is just crazy. On the 29th it will be two months and I am still wishing that all of this is a mistake or a nightmare.

— LaQuita Suggs June 17, 2007 at 9:10 p.m.

I think there is a lot of guessing about the nature of the animal that murdered my mother. I don't think we will ever be able to imagine how a low life like this decided to play God and drastically impact our lives. I don't know anything about this person, but I will say that he is an animal, a maggot, the epitome of filth and evil and should not be allowed to continue to breathe the same air as descent law abidng citizens. I try not to place much thought about this person because he is worthless and disgusting and I wonder what efforts did his parents place in attemting to rear or should I say raise (like cattle) him . What I do know and believe is that he will have his just day and I pray that it is met with a decision of death. I feel pissed off and angry often and I do understand that the primary feelings are hurt, pain, grief, loneliness and sorrow. I miss my mother so dearly.

— LaQuita Suggs June 7, 2007 at 11:03 p.m.

LaQuita and Family,What do you do, when you've done all you can and it seems like you can't make it through. Well you just STAND when there's nothing left to do, you just STAND and watch the Lord see you through. Yes, after you've done all you can, you just STAND.LaQuita, I too lost my mother very unexpectedly and the pain will never leave althogether but Let God carry you through this and it will become bearable. Moms are irreplaceable but you always have her love with you, its in your heart, your mind, your thoughts and your soul. That can never be taken from you. When the seconds, minutes, hours and days are tough. Take a moment close you eyes and allow your moms love to surround you, by remembering the good times you had with her. Special moments always bring tears but let them bring a warmth to you heart that only she gave you. Remember her laughter and dancing and singing, just enjoying the life that God blessed her with and surround yourself with family and friends like the one we share in Asia. My continued prayers for strenght and peace are with you and your sons.

— April Lindsey- Houston, TX June 5, 2007 at 6:25 p.m.

LaQuitaWords cannot express the sorrow that I feel about this tragic event and I cannot imagine the hurt, pain and grief you must be feeling right now. I have very fond memories of your mother, particularly when we were younger. I remember her being a very quiet woman who seemed to have always kept to herself. I used to wonder how it is that she brought up a daughter who seems to be the complete opposite of herself. I know that your mother was very proud of you and your accomplishments.Just know that you have friends and your church family sending prayers up for you and your family. I know that this is a very difficult time, but I trust that the Lord will see you through, for this battle is not yours, its the Lord's.

— Zelerie May 30, 2007 at 9:45 p.m.